You sense that ancient side of you
The self has petals you trust that can open forever
Can I be who I am if I have not discovered all my layers yet?
Laid in different zones of the existence
If so, where do I end?
Is it an indulgence to look for the threads connecting me to my dots?
Deepest memories stored in the holy cupboards of the universes come alive
Is it not too much to contain?
Or is it the only way forward for the one
who is after completing her whole story?
Shall I stay here looking at those ancient memories?
Shall I move on acknowledging what is to be known
has already been laid in front of me?
is it not time buzzing in your ears reminding itself to be alive?
or is it just an illusion coming down after years of ruling over your life?
you tap the ground a couple of times
you call the Intent
force wakes up under your feet and walks through your legs and torso
finds the way to your head
a sweet beast with seven eyes
in your womb
the whole current goes upward
and connects you to somewhere up there
you are fully lit
like a lighthouse
you tap the ground twice again
shall I keep you or let you go
Its beams already hit the cosmos
perhaps it is too late to disconnect
the message must be already out
it will come back to you like a boomerang
all in balance, at least its shadows fall back on me
your light will shine back
perhaps on a commute
in an urban setting
time swirls around itself
when you see your ancient self
you remember what you sent up there
it is pouring like an unexpected rain on a sunny day
and son you will have a rainbow
lit by your beast in the past perhaps, or a layer of time ago
that beast sleeps inside
since ancient times.
Holy cupboard holly cupboard!
Shall I keep the beast or let it go?
No you don’t want to send it away
but you can disconnect from it if this is what you want
then what happens to all the selves you had memories about
your beast is all you have, connecting you to yourself,
to all your impressions.
it is the only thing that intersects multiple selves of you in all the universes
with its ancient beauty.
It is mesmerising.
you sense yourself wider and larger now
you embrace that ancient side
as your own.
you feel wider
you tap your foot once
you thank the Intent.