Memento

– Everything is as I left. – Yes, everything is the same here. – Have I been away for long? – 16 earth years long. Before that, you were not always in radar either, we got worried about you. We thought we have lost you too. – The earth is too dense, it is thick….

Guan Yin’s Stance

I can see the curves of her lips. Although she is invisible in space you can see her silhouette if you entangle with her still mind. She has become space now, she is whole, nothing is missing, nothing is excess, she is complete in her stance. She is wearing a red headband on her forehead,…

In Rumi’s Heart

“It is not about me”, he said Shadows on his face were fighting with the mellow light of the candle His breath that has blown the flame hit my heart like a hurricane. My mountains were crumbling down, my oceans were rising up to my crown I was not crying, but all were pouring out and…

Prefrontal Cortex

I hold the memory of you in my prefrontal cortex A vintage projector plays your movie, while I look at the empty space in the living room The pictures are black and white but I can feel all your colours in the form of heat  Your words are clear, but each time they mean something…

Angel Angel!

“Nowhere to be seen Angel Angel!” Her heart was big and open There was no bigger space in our neighbourhood Adults offered her a cup of tea A cat swirled around a quiet door The cat also knew She did not seem to fit the living room Her wings were on the veranda We played…

Vertical Desires

After all those years I understand all our communication was all about me telling you, about you, you and me. Not what I heard or learned from you, about me, you and me. You just loved how lost I was, how I was seeking you how I was uniting, with you and me. You loved…

Reflections

It wants to be found but it is not to be found It is in the journey Can you give up your search? Now! Your search is your biggest pain you are in a painful longing whenever you get a glimpse of merging Remember and re-member your pieces Go deep into the seed and reflect…

The Seed

You are the seed of the dream, we have dreamt about you We have planted hundreds and thousands of years of history in you within that seed You are within the dream that we planted in you It is not a riddle to resolve, there is no mystery take it as it is since you…

The Great Master

The great master is the one who admits that s(he) does not know about your path as well as her path. She says I only know where I am now and I know what is my desire on this journey, these are all I know.  Then she invites you to follow her footsteps. She would…

In the River Lethe

The bottle broke when it hit the rocks I am on the loose now, floating and swirling with joy. I love the current and the wind. The ink dissolved, I cannot recall the words. But I have the sense of the message. Before fading in the water, the ink underlined a bit of the river,…

Heart

She keeps you in her heart Mesmerised with your reflection, you love her When she smiles it feels itchy, you smile. … What did that painting in the gallery tell you? You stood there infinite times She ran through you, like a current, no? You wanted to have all of them In one form or…

Speak out

You were born again and again for many centuries, in many space-times and time-spaces Carrying a message forward You clung your teeth Not knowing what would come out of your mouth   How many times you hid in the crowd in disguise You didn’t speak about it to yourself even when the windows were shut…

Writing for self-knowing

We receive messages throughout our day, from many sources. Prophecy now seems like what we can easily do. I remember my farewell to the Source, I was probably around 10… I would pray to a smiley Muslim Hodja like God, sitting and looking down to see me, through his sweet cheeks and nose, in an…

What can a woman be?

The biggest dilemma many women suffer from is the ambiguity they have about their own gender. They put a lot of effort into trying to understand what being a woman is. “I am a woman and I want to act and feel like a woman” is a continuous chat in their mind. They wish they…

Intersection

After you left, We felt so lonely We; the God, the Prophet, two Saints and myself We sat for a short while Wondering about what to do It was unbearable Without you   First, the Saints gave up on waiting They decided to turn themselves into something else Which has no loneliness inside They galloped…

Women on top

  With appreciation to all women who lead their lives as  “a woman on top” and carry this as a quality with grace. I would like to admit publicly that apparently I was not a marriage material in the conventional sense and apologise to the men, to start with, whose time I wasted. The aim…

SAÇMA’NIN YURDU

Bana saçma’yı verin
anlamlar size kalsın

kelimelerin bir şey ifade etmeye çalışmadığı bir yer var:
bir elektrik telinde sıralanmış
farklı yönlere bakan
avare kuşlar gibi
bağlam dışı dizilir kelimeler
saçma’nın yurdunda
ordan burdan konular açar her biri
şundan bundan bahsederler
bir şey ifade etmeden
saçmanın nizamında
bana onları bırakın
anlamı götürün giderken

Face to face

I will see you Through the tunnels To the lights   I will see you Day and night In the dawn of time and in twilights   I will see you to your bones and every cell To your deepest desires and pain   I am your witness   Layer by layer I will see you…

Juliette speaks

The earth is turning beneath I wait for Juliette to speak   She moves gently I somehow know she is not gentle at all I wait for her to speak   She lies in ambush and forces me to talk I talk Intimidated by her silence   As the earth starts turning faster time loses…

Now and Here (Nowhere)

You trusted that“now and here” is the only plane there is since the beginning of your journey. You saw for yourself that time and space were useless definitions to explain the wholeness of the one and ended up in failure when looking for the right words.

THE FATE BEAST

  It was the Fate you wanted to escape from. You changed your direction suddenly walking along a street, to play a trick on that fate beast following you in every step you take. You didn’t like straightforward topics, mundane routines, planned futures. It seemed to be the only way out of its sight. You appreciated every…

EMPTINESS AS A MATTER

  Making effort to cope with the every day issues of the existence in the land of nothingness is a mere illusion. You sometimes start to think that nothing is really important, nothing has any value. A dark spirit sits on your chest, everyday life becomes a burden on your shoulders and you wonder what it was…

Homecoming

Love is not staying in your land tranquil… It is always a homecoming without knowing how far you are   It is walking towards your land With sand in the eyes wind in the chest feet deep down. a longing is felt only on the way back…   Love is getting lost in the river of forgetfulness and…

At work

You practice selflessness in it. You perceive it as a living organism. It becomes your temple where you practice your consciousness, mindfulness, ability to love and give unconditionally. It is where you learn to take responsibility, walking the walk, with courage and freedom. You hold its interests separate from yours. You need it, however you…

Understanding

An ordinary man does not notice the relation between his being and the outside world. The world for the ordinary man is an external environment that needs changing, controlling and adjusting to. He collects information, builds strategies, labels and defines the signals. He believes this is the only way to cope with the life. He…

Individual

  A wise man once told me a short story of a shepherd. I will probably not remember the exact words, but I think I have never forgotten the meaning. Let me try to retell the story: A shepherd takes 100 sheeps for grazing and he counts only 99 on his return. Because he is…

Space the 10th

H regretted that nothingness does not have a form to dream about. H was used to dilemmas after chasing them for the past three years, trying to track her steps to unknown. He knocked all the doors of his consciousness to understand whereabouts of her soul. John the neighbour, started to be worried about him…

Conversations – 1

We came a long way in the journey of awareness. This was a journey for us to turn our way back to our very human side, recognising ourselves as a conscious entity. We had layers of unawareness to dig and we did it. Now somehow most of us know understand that there is something behind the whole mess, modernisation, imperialism, clonialism, fascism, borders, fears, wars and bloods.

Nine: A NEW MAN

It wasn’t an awful thing to accept that he was stuck in a dream zone. He wouldn’t mind living there forever. “It would be beautiful to fly around if I could somehow understand the physics here”, H thought. He wanted to go through the velvet curtains of time and space. “How can one find the…

8th – Wake Up!

H feels blessed with a zesty bit of pain that runs through his thin veins, which runs his body day and night. The pain was shielding him from feelings that he is not currently would be able to deal with, such as joy, happiness, hope, love. It had such a power that there was no…

Seven: Hush

H is still following his routines, driving to places, chatting with the postman, reading the cards bringing condolences for the beautiful and angel wife. But things have a different quality now. A dreaminess… He forgotten the keys this morning on the car after returning from the bakery. Didn’t even notice until John, the neighbour, rang…

Six: Intent

I need a direction H thought, looking at the horizon. The light blue sky was meeting the turquoise sea with a hazy line. Forms got hazy, blurred in the vastness. What if I erase my borderlines too? he asked sadly. He was feeling quite dreamy recently; he could sense the earth and the sky with fear only….

The Beauty

“I am an average man, with a great envy to the spirits that walk on the top of the hills and at the depths of the oceans. I can neither rise nor fall, I live on the bottom of the hills or on the shores. This is my destiny, to be an average man. I have not…

Serving Humanity

It gives us fear to think about serving humanity to be a happier and healthier place.  Everyone does a bit, but it is not an easy job. You need to deal with so much darkness, dark energies, negativity. You want your space to be surrounded with high and pleasant frequencies and vibrations, therefore you need…